Wine

You don't say what you think

about that and of me

I can't see inside your soul but that's so bad!

I can't tolerate you

I want to see you drunk

I will enter your mind and you'll be

honest for once, my friend!

You'll be honest for once...

And then you're an open book

that will clarify all your thoughts of me!

Your stubborn coldness will

finally be gone for good right now!

Take a sip from this wine

it's so fresh and tastes fine

I'll give you what you want

As long as you don't stop to drink!

Please start talking more and don't stop to drink

(I need it...)

And then you're an open book

that will clarify all your thoughts of me!

Your stubborn coldness will

finally be gone for good right now!

And now that you're an open book

that clarified all your hate for me!

You don't want to meet again

and you leave instantly and for an eternity!

Now I want you sober 

Please don't let me cry

You've murdered me inside

Why did i do this?

Why? God damn it why?

Erratic

I hope that you‘ll do something with your fancy life 

Cause you deserve it and I can not do it right 

I want to love you, but you shouldn‘t feel my pain

My mind‘s erratic - am I really that insane? 

I want to hold it tight - this knife it will please my frights 

My thoughts are so fucked up 

I am not worthy for anyone! 

I am exhausted and can‘t hold back my tears 

you mustn‘t see them as they show my greatest fears 

Why are they present, can I once feel inner peace?

My soul‘s erratic - can I sell it, please? 

(The body gets numb and my breath is going wild…)

I want to hold it tight - this knife it will please my frights 

My thoughts are so fucked up 

I am not worthy for anyone! 

I couldn‘t help you, my best wasn‘t enough 

my presence alone let your blood cells have a rush

a feeling was true, I cry myself into sleep 

I am erratic - my body is what i want to leave 

Leave! I want to leave it – i want to leave~

Shining

You were helping me so much at the parted times

But now I‘m feeling worse, doesn‘t matter how much i‘ve tried

~Tried so hard to make you smile while losing mine

It wasn‘t enough and even turned me out of sight

We‘re not always right

but we‘re never wrong

because for our feelings we don‘t have any fault

Let ourselves and everybody else shine

I‘ve learned so much about what stressed my soul before-hand

I don‘t regret the acts rather the end of this

~This crumbling, aching and destroying thinking

that will watch my life ending

We‘re not always right

but we‘re never wrong

because for our feelings we don‘t have any fault

Let ourselves and everybody else shine

I don‘t let myself hurt again~

Stay away you‘re causing this pain~

Please numb my soul, cause I don‘t need your crimes~

Our emotions are always right

But our mind can see them wrong

It‘s just the way we were always born

Let our inner brave fire shine

We‘re not always right

but we‘re never wrong

because for our feelings we don‘t have any fault

Let ourselves and everybody else shine

Journey

I really felt like I was not worthy

for their love at all

yet i'm so thankful that i can't deny

I was gaining so much fear at this time

Showing different sides of me

that really resolved to fuck me really up

Always hoping that I'm enough

It starts this journey...

I hoped that you would

Rise me

Lead me on to light

I hoped that you will guide

me finally inside

I wanted you to

hold me

Lead me on to light

I hoped so that you would guide...

Yet I must admit

I wasn't very mad

Althought I was hurt i kept silence

and my speak was very blurred

But I'm glad I didn't say a thing

So I wouldn't hurt like others did

I know that nothing was meant forever bad

And I will always just wish the best

The best thing evolved from it

discovering my own soul-purpose

Refining who I really am and what I will always tell them

This is now my Journey

The Future will be a part of me

Let it all begin

I know I will

Rise me

Lead me on to light

I hope that life will guide

me finally inside

I really try to

hold me

lead me on to light

So much hope that life will guide

me finally inside

I want myself to

The journey has led me to the stars~

I see that it

lead me finally to real light

I feel where joy will always guide

me for real now towards inside

I want myself to

Hold you, bring you through the night

be the one that now will guide

You can always trust by heart

And will never tear you apart

Rise me

Lead me on to light

My star will always guide

me finally inside

I can feel it

I can feel it now deep down in my soul

That I need you…

Hold me bring me to new spheres

to a place with no big fears

Blackened White

Can't you see?

This place is a new!

Can't you hear?

That all here has changed!

The whole way in my whole world, the wholly place!

Changed the one sense to my whole brain, a holy space!

So you suppose that I could set the time, the theme and now what do you want to hear?

You want to suppose I could change, this whole, new, changed and darkened place?

Blackened is the white on the rotten flag!

Blackened is the white on the little bird!

Do you even know that with every one of your steps

you're choosing your own fate, which you're destined to carry?

Do you even know that with every open door 

you close at least one other and leave possible ways behind?

So you suppose to cut it here?

Is this the truth, the only way?

Far is now the place that was once near!

Dark is now the heart that was once dear!

Lost is now the sense that was once here!

Blackened is the white that was once clear!

Blackened is the flag that was once white!~